Bad Mood

I'm back. I have to study a lot and I'm so lazy. I have one week until my exam. I pray to God to help me. I'm so disappointed. I don't know what to do. I feel like I have no reason and feel useless. I finished the university several years ago and I'm not any longer in touch with any of my colleagues. I don't know how to learn. These books are so nasty. I feel like I hate everybody, and everybody hates me. Fuck! I'm in a bad mood. I was in a cafe this night and met some guys. I felt like a stranger with them. We used to be friends before. I met some girls also. Sandy, Carmen and Luiza. They were nice with me until I told them that I posted on Internet some of the pictures in which we were together. They got mad at that. I told them 'Hey girls, it's about me first of all. OK?